i still fight with my social phobya.Is so hard and sometimes i feel full of hope.The whole process to overcome my fear of people is a hard process.But this year i started to make new steps.To go out of my house again, i ride bike,i go to gym.I don&t know what exactly changed inside me.I know only that i had no hope to go out again,or stay inside market again.When i went out without help,and without have an panic attack ,it was one of the most happy day from my life.I cannot describe what i felt exactly...just like i was born again.Now i go to school,every monday for 2 hours.I still feel unconfortable and i try to stay fahr from people cause every contact like eyes contact or talking contact make me lose my breath,make me feel into a sleep deep,i lose my concentration,tremble,cry.My teacher know that so i am now more confortable with her.I must try to ignore my actually life,to put my attention on something cause without friends,without familly,without a job i feel sometimes i ll go to insane.
Deviantart is one of those things where i try to spend time and relax my soul.Waching what people create...when i find a picture that i like,it give me relaxation and peace .Thank you to all people who post here beautiful artworks,who share the beautiful part of life with world here.I wish one day my english vocabulary will be more large,to can understund more,i still try to make progresses with spanish,japanese and english language.My actualy stress from my life is so strong that i have days when i cannot remember nothing or make something.But we have to live this life we have , without being sad or mad long time.Because life is a gift and we are lucky to be alive.And never forget-life is just one we have and is very short.So every day must feel that we are lucky